On Change

WHAT A YEAR.

I wish I could say that this year was no different than any other year, but it really isn't the case.

2008 has brought on new revelations:
We are in one of the biggest economic crises in history...we elected a new president (a black one) who has the potential to shift the world in a new direction...an actress starred in two films that came out within a week from each other...and last but not least...a pop star came out with a new album called Circus.

All bad humor aside (man i need to work on that), it was interesting to see the different shifts occurring throughout the year, especially in the last quarter of the year (not really going into detail). Intense would probably be the best word to describe it all. I'm sure it was for all of us.

If you are ready or not, IT IS TIME FOR CHANGE...if not individually, at least collectively. When there is change happening all around us, there is a tendency for people to go into fear, anger, grief or just total confusion. I am definitely a "victim" of change. It's a scary thing sometimes...but people are beginning to understand that in order to bring in new things in their lives sometimes means working through the old, even if it's painful to face. What's exciting is people are becoming conscious to the changes...not in fear of it, but embracing their own individuality amongst all the collective chaos...Because really, the world IS in chaos and the question I ask myself everyday is -What cool stuff am I going to create in this world of chaos?- If this was everyone's mentality, the world wouldn't necessarily be better, but tremendously different.

People are catching on that they have control of their reality a la The Secret and popularity of thought forms and all that jazz. It's spreading fast. I see it in the eyes of every client I come across at work. They initially come in expecting for me to give them their answers, but as a wise man named Michael Tamura would say, [people are finding out that THEY] are the answer. That is what 2009 is all about: Accountability as an individual. Does this mean I have to face my fears? What have I created in my life? What am I going to create next?

WHAT ARE YOUR DREAMS? Every client that comes in for a reading or a healing, I ask them what their dreams are. Chances are, they are doing what is safe or the complete opposite of their dreams. There is nothing wrong with that. I am one to talk...I'm suppose to be in Hollywood, at a desk in a tv or film studio, answering phones, reading material, and writing coverage while making creative, honest, entertaining films that touch people's lives one way or another.

Personally, I've put my dreams on hold to fully understand the caliber of my abilities as an individual. Not only to be creative...but to provide for myself...to uncover the lies so I can heal and become the man I want to be. If I have no certainty and seniority over my life, why bother walking into a room to pitch or try producing a film? They are excuses, but valid for myself as an individual. I want to breathe and feel that I love every part of myself...the imperfections, the dark parts, and most of all the beauty I possess...what can I offer to the world, and most of all myself?.. i don't want to take a step into Hollywood before i figure that out.

This is why i ask the question, what are your dreams? Every person I ask, knows what their dreams are and it is fascinating to see where they are at in that process. Some people won't fulfill their true dreams this life time...some will. It really just depends on the circumstances of the individual and what they are able to clear out of the way for themselves. It's all energy.

It takes courage to change your reality. Without letting go and destroying the old, it makes it more difficult to create space to grow and live out our dreams. Change doesn't mean that the way you are NOW isn't adequate enough. Change merely means creating an opportunity for the new to come in.

Once again, a new year creates an opportunity for all of us to let go of the old, and bring in the new. The question I ask myself is what am I leaving behind in 2008?

Energy is moving faster. We are evolving. We are becoming more sensitive and aware of the things around us. How lucky are we to live in a time where we can create more, dream bigger, and have it all.

Happy New Year.

On Loneliness

What I've noticed in the past couple of months is a pandemic of loneliness. Loneliness comes in many forms and it doesn't necessarily mean you are physcially alone; it's a feeling inside of you. Every single person on this planet has their own agendas or purpose and this tends to separate all of us from each other. Then, there is this thing where humans thrive on community and/or feeling apart of something. It's a cluster of complex notions that we understand in our nature, but is really difficult to execute in terms of the expectations we have for ourselves. Do I think about myself? or should I only think about other people? It's a dicotomy that rules most of the world's population and collectively, it is always about 'what's the right thing to do'?

I'm not completely understanding where I'm going with this, but what I am seeing are people in the state of loneliness waiting to be seen and heard. Restraint and lack of truth has a lot to do with it. There are many people holding back or aren't willing to face their situations. It's a scary world out there. Many of us get so caught up in the bullshit, we forget about each other and really understand that we are all in this together. We all have a common purpose; to experience, grow, and change. Some people can have this and some have a harder time with it, but what seems to happen is that our own personal agendas tend to rule our state of being. We want this and we want that...we want to accomplish this and not be friends with this person and fuck this person and fuck over this person or request yams on thanksgiving because it gives you less gas so you don't fart in front of great-grandma Phyllis because she thinks it's rude....and etc. These aren't necessarily bad things, they are things we might be wanting.

When life goes bananas, there is a feeling that no one understands because our agendas are so personal... but thinking about why we are lonely is so important because maybe we aren't at all. Maybe we are lonely because we get stuck in the concept or feeling of loneliness.

Loneliness has various grades, but are all valid in nature. A leader might feel lonely because he is the one everyone is looking up to (but who does he turn to?). A homeless person on the street may feel lonely because they have no family or friends to care or love for them. A high school girl might feel lonely because all of her friends have found the love of their lives and she hasn't yet. It is all about perception and there is no wrong perception about this.

Loneliness isn't necessarily the most friendliest feeling, but there might be a reason for it and what's great about emotions or a state of being is there's always room for change.